december slow down

no pictures today.
just words.

i had posted that november was a busy month...true.  then i got to thinking...i always say that.  which month isn't a busy month?  especially with the holidays coming up, i feel pulled in all kinds of directions.
i have so much to do....
so much that i have to do - pay the bills, do the laundry, make supper, clean up....
and so much that i want to do - be crafty, scrapbook, write a blog, shop, do something kind, call a friend, make the world a better place.... you know - the things we mean to do but rarely have the time for 

I'm starting to think that being busy isn't the badge of honor that we sometimes make it out to be.  Afterall...busy is when accidents happen.  Busy is when important things and people get pushed aside.  Busy is when the stuff that matters goes unnoticed.

I confess.  My heart and head are in dozens of places right now.  But even though that anxiety propels me forward and keeps me checking off the to-do list, it isn't productive.  Not spiritually, anyway.

So, here I am, Lord.  You know this isn't easy.  I don't like sacrificing the feeling of accomplishment.  But I know that You are worth this most precious commodity of time.

I am at your feet.  Still anxious about all those things on the endless list.

I wish I could say that I'm more enthusiastic to be here with Your Word on my lap.  But I know that these are the moments when You grow me.  So give me focus.  Please pave a clear path through the clutter.  This is a fight worth fighting.  Forgive me for not choosing to battle it more often.

Psalm 145.  This one always brings me back to You.
No lookin' at the clock.  I'm here until You're done filling me.  No matter how much time it takes.

I want December to look a little slower.  A little more full of the meaningful stuff and less of the garbage that draws my heart into the materialism that surrounds me.   Slow me down, Lord.
Please speak...