okay - maybe a lot of a funk.
i'm not sure quite what my problem was...
maybe the fact that i have not slept well for several weeks.
i know it is all part of the great plan to get me ready for nursing a wee babe. but, seriously...it seems so unfair to be walking around in a haze of weariness, knowing that it is only going to get worse :(
or maybe the fact that it was negative a million degrees for like a week and we literally sprinted from the car to the house and the house to the car, trying not to let our lungs turn into icicles on the way. add to that the fact that we had no snow. so, our wintery wonderland was brown and frozen solid. no sledding, no snowmen, no skating....ugh.
could have also been the fact that my students have been either sick or tired or both for about a month and when i'm not getting one caught up from being gone with strep, i'm looking for at-home stuff for the next who is out for a week with influenza.
they're looking at me like they can barely keep their eyes open and i'm pasting on a smile, telling them, "today's a great day for learning" but...really...i totally get it.
they are tired. i am tired. boo.
and all i want to do is go home and take a nap.
but i have littles to look after and no matter how much i want to rest, this job of being a momma comes with no breaks.
there are stories to be read.
laundry to be folded.
supper to be prepared.
noses to wipe.
serious games of candy land to be played.
when i look at these pictures, i'm embarrassed at my depressing tone.
i mean, look at how much fun we had - i think....i was maybe nodding off here and there.
seriously, though. what a blessing to have an abundance of toys and activities to keep us entertained on days like these.
peachy-roo took the time indoors to discover a love for legos.
i, on the other hand, simply built tower after tower, telling her that's all i know how to do.
how lame!
well, the other day i decided enough was enough.
actually, i got real convicted reading my Bible one morning and the good Lord gently whispered that my pity party needed to end.
He helped me out by giving us about three inches of fluffy white snow that has brightened everything around here, including my attitude.
i promptly whipped open the instructions for that lego set and put together a very impressive helicopter, a house that would have put any contractor's to shame and a duck. yes, a duck.
peach was thrilled - momma's back.
no more complaining - consider it ALL JOY my friends - even the very cold, brown, sleepy days.
then, peach and i decided to get real fancy with a romantic valentine's day supper.
we invited grams and gramps.
got all dressed in our valentine's best.
bought kid wine.
added a few sweet decorations.
bought a new cup and called it a party.
just when i think i can't possibly do the extra work required to make memories....i'm reminded that those little extras are the things that keep the dreary wearies from overtaking our home.
it is so easy to let the insignificant negatives in life make me pouty. sometimes the battle for joy seems too big.
but, the sun was shining when i went to work this morning.
and it was still light out when we had supper tonight.
ahh.....there is light at the end of the tunnel.
take a deep breath.
it's all good.
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